dark days

such a dramatic week.

i never thought i would be that emotional about it

seeing my friend and knowing someone i love is in so much pain literally breaks my heart

seeing people i love being hurt, hurts me

i feel so incredibly selfish saying that

if im sad, i can only imagine how much pain you are in

im heaps emotional right now

i feel so useless

the thing is i cant do much to help

all i can do is pray and be there for you

but that still feels useless.

i really didnt have time to do this but i did

SO DO YOU GET THE HIDDEN MESSAGE?

I went back to what I used to be. I was happy

HOW?

HOW do you get someone you think abt every day of your life out of your brain?

please tell me

cos i'll try

im a person who doesnt like to get their hopes up

i HATE being disappointed

ive always been like that

so im going to try not to think about HIM anymore

*sadface*

i'll be fine

im a loser

HAHAHAHAH. NO

i dont believe you

wanna know what pisses me off?

well i found something that annoys me. ALOT.

when ppl talk shit abt my family or friends.

like i get so angry.

so angry i cant even describe

i swear. this girl is giving my cousin (who lives in sydney) shit at school

if i met her i swear i would shout @ her and then punch her. im serious.

i know its bad. but that what i would initially wanna do.

but yeah, im very defensive if u diss my family/friends

i remember in primary school, year 5, i had a friend who had orange hair AKA ranga

and the 'popular' girl in school was giving her shit

one day i lost it with her (popular chick) and

i actual pushed the her against the wall and told her to leave her alone

and she left her alone.

she was probs afraid of me.

i know i am scary when angry, cos i never get angry. so it all bottles then i explode.

it was still wrong

but i gotta say it felt good.

LOL

100% truth

thinking about this all makes me laugh